Living a lie I cant explain

Living a life that’s doomed to faint

I wish time had a stop watch

So I can go back

Watch the sunset backwards

Watchin the the sun rise upwards

Feel like my friends are my closest enemies

Feel like the world unknown is safer for me

God I give you the hands of time

To speed up faster any part of my life

To stop the whispers of the night

So I can listen to the twinkling starlight

Oh the silence of the night is my true friend

When all words of the day are done and spent

The quietness all around me

My mind settling

My world revolving

Around one source one point one moment

Understanding my thoughts that lie dormant

Oh god you can hear me

Oh god you can see me

Here lies my heart

I lay it before you openly

Perform on me surgery

Take out everything.

Fill me to the uttermost brim

With truth , life, secrets, and whim

Teach me to be at peace

Even with friends who become my enemies.

My anger rages inside of me

I hear you crying so desperately

But don’t you dare come home to treat me

With some cocked up attitude thinking you something

Im hurt inside cuz of all of you

Friends of mine ill see you thru

But who’s gonna lift a pinky for me

Whos gonna help me when im falling

If I cant reach you what can I do

I keep texting calling but ignoring is all you do

I cant stand the taste of pride

Or the taste of you lingering in my mind

I am tired and weary

Every step I take every word I speak is leary

I don’t know how to be useful anymore

Don’t know how to shove ppl out of da door

Wish I had the strength of a thousand men

Then Id die for you all over again

i miss my baby boo

where are u where are u

out there helping them

are hearts becoming one for the nations

oh god keep him safe

let his love grow for you

lead him to the land that you have given him

the sun will shine soon one day

as all the horrors of life pass away

the clouds will part—

and you will see

all your tears wiped away

the sun will shine again someday

the peace that lies inside my heart tonight

is the feeling of your face in the silent moonlight

live and learn i have a past

but smoke a blunt and just relax

let those happy times be your smiles

in all the hardships and life’s many trials

keep the peace thats inside you

trust in god and he will find you

 at the moment of desperate disparity i found hope in the light of life. i reached out and his touch moved my darkness as when clouds move away from the rays of the sun. his warmth on my face keeps me hoping his breeze of love and peace surrounding me makes my life strong in the face of desperate disparity.